Skeletons in my closet

The silent running dialogue that I often have with myself.

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

Just a question?!

Things fall apart!

That is a true statement. But as they fall apart they fall back together. It is all part of HIS grand plan. If you believe in the Big Man or some form of the Big Man.

But what is this all about if you don’t. I shudder to think. I have never been a Christian that lives up to the total call and burden placed on us. I guess I am just lazy on that point. I don’t do much to bring others into fellowship with the Big Guy.

IF every asked I will quickly vocally support my chosen faith; but door to door, on the corner of Bourbon Street during the Bayou Classic, or cooking rice for some small village in a faraway uncivilized land…well I just haven’t had that calling.

Sometimes I sin. I do things that I know are sinful. Alas I am human. I strive everyday to be Christ Like.

I look at the world today. It scares me. It really feels like everything is getting worse. Crime, violence, environment, sexuality, government, disease, natural disasters, man-made disasters are just the tip of the iceberg.

SO my solution is to pray. I ask for strength. I humble myself, and move forward knowing that he wont give me anything I cant bare. However, I also know he has empowered me with free will. I make decisions that direct me life and the consequences of which I fully expect. Every now and then I sit in disbelief at my misfortune, and alternatively at my fortune. No matter how bad the situation I know that HE is still with me, and that without his shield it would be much worse.

For those who don’t believe, how do you survive? What is your reason for going on through the bad times? How do you do it? Just a question.

8 Comments:

  • At 9:22 AM, Blogger Serenity23 said…

    I think it's easy for someone to look at everything they've accomplished and rather than believe it's through God's grace, they think it's through their own blood, sweat and tears. They have their way of looking at things. For instance, I know that I partied my ass of in college, skipped class, didn't study and just lived from day to day. There's no reason I should have a degree, much less be alive if it weren't for the grace of God. But there are others who stayed up all night studying, went to every class and they might feel that they've earned their degrees by their own actions. I guess it's easier to find God or recognize his power when trouble arises b/c at that point you realize you can't do it all by yourself even if you tried. The best thing to do would be to recognize that even when you aren't in trouble or pain, he's still there with you, just waiting on your call.

     
  • At 9:46 AM, Blogger That Girl Tam said…

    Well...you pose a great question to your readers...and I will pose another. What if someone believes in a greater power than themselves, but it's not the God you refer to? Does it makes this person any less worthy to receive the blessings that the Universe gives them? If you (and anyone else that may care to comment on your blog today) could take a few moments to read Me vs. Religion you'll get a better idea of where I'm coming from.

    I was raised Catholic my entire life, but converted to Paganism (completely) about 3 years ago...please read the link...and then let's discuss it!

     
  • At 12:38 PM, Blogger Closet Owner said…

    Tam
    Thinking on your post. What I think you are saying is you believe what you believe so as long as you aint genociding, or suicide bombing, you good.

    I agree, to that extent.

    I don’t feel that religion itself is the only bastion of morality.

    I think that organized religion itself is something I have always had a problem with. I am Baptist, I went to a private catholic school from Pre-K to 2nd grade. Yeah they had Pre-K back then. My parents wanted the best education for us so they started us in the very disciplined whup yo azz environment.

    I never questioned Baptist practices from a young age, praying and singing seemed natural like a natural healthy expression of my religious beliefs.

    I always wondered what was the mystery surrounding Catholicism. They prayed to everybody but God, prayed with beads, and symbols, and chanted….but that is another post.

    I grew older and more observant; Catholic and Baptist Church scandals rocked my faith in organized religion. Paying tithes and seeing pastor drive off in a Mercedes damaged my faith in organized religion. Reading slave narratives and a society that used religion to propagate slavery in the South hurt my faith in organized religion. The right wing conservatives dented my faith in organized religion. But I never stopped believing in my higher power.

    Even learning that other books written at the same time as the Holy Books of the bible but were not included in the bible because of various political, ethical, and societal reasons didn’t destroy my faith.

    IF you want reasons not to believe they are abundant, but that is exactly why they call it faith.

    I like to believe that my morals extend beyond my religion, even though religion is where they got their start. I believe more in turning the other cheek, and allowing man to walk with me to know me. I try to be Christ Like (aka Christian). Jesus never killed or alienated anyone. I try to be the same.

    So what I am saying is while I may not agree with your religious choices, to vocal oppose you or deny you or subjugate you, or kill you, or defame you or debase you is against my morals. I love you as much as any other. Religion has been used to often to not realize the inherent dangers of man against man.

    So don’t get mad when you are handed religious paraphernalia, just take it as a suggestion. The crusades went out a long time ago, despite what Bush and his boys are doing in Washington.

     
  • At 12:38 PM, Blogger Closet Owner said…

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  • At 1:18 PM, Blogger That Girl Tam said…

    Yikes! You wrote a WHOLE other blog!! HAHAH!!

    Well I appreciate the fact that you won't vocally oppose me, deny me, subjucate me, kill me, defame me or debase me due to your morals! YAAAAAAAAAY for morals! Not everyone has them!

    I wasn't MAD that the guy handed me that pamphlet, I was angered that it suggested that I'd be judged because I haven't "accepted God and Jesus Christ as our Lord Savior" Some of the biggest hypocrites I know call themselves Christians.

    Just as you (and others like you) feel whole knowing the power of God is on your side, I feel whole knowing that the Goddess is in everything I do and experience. I'm no feminist, but why does everything have to be run by men? or MALE figures? Another post for another time....

    Bright Blessings!

    T.

     
  • At 1:28 PM, Blogger That Girl Tam said…

    Oh yeah, thanks for stopping by...

     
  • At 12:51 PM, Blogger Carmell said…

    i'm late. but i was reading through your blog and this particular post... i couldn't have wrote it better!!!! this is me down to the T. thank you for reading my mind!!

     
  • At 3:02 AM, Blogger souffle said…

    I'm a believer and if I cant pray or at the end of my rope, I know HE does it for me, HE already knows whats up :) but great post all the same

     

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